Do I want children? Find out at the end of this post.
I am childfree at this point in time and still a virgin and single at 21 and I want to keep it that way. I am also a selfish person and do not want to have to spend god knows how much money on a child. I am also living in the poor house right now and in college so I have no money or time for a child.
I am first and foremost an animal lover and act very motherly towards animals. Children? Not so much. I am very awkward around children younger than 5 years of age. The reason? I grew up around people older than me as well as animals. I had a friend who was 5 years old (4 years younger than me) so that is why 5 is my tolerable age.
I am not a people person at all. My social skills practically suck and I have very few friends who rarely even call me. When you've been teased and taunted in elementary school because of what you look like due to your father's genes (which are sadly quite dominant in me), it makes you hate people quite a bit especially children. Even though I had friends in elementary school, it still sucked. One school I went to I had
no friends except for the ones that lived on my block and would not play with me during recess. Most of those were older than me. Then I moved and gained new friends but they eventually moved away and Jr. High started. *Sighs* Jr. High and High School were my loneliest years and even worse than elementary school.
At one point I even withdrew and did online schooling (not gonna go into it, way too personal). I couldn't concentrate that way so back to school I went.
Not gonna go into my whole history it would take too long. Let me summarize this up: While my life sucked, it was not as bad as it could have been. I was never abused and I was rather well behaved.
I am a nice person, but very mistrustful unless you can get my trust. If you break it, good luck getting back and if you do, it won't be completely. One reason I would make a terrible parent to a child. I don't trust children on principle unless I can just tell they are trustful. Believe me, that doesn't happen very often. Usually only happens in older children.
Don't know if I stated it, but I am a very lazy person. Children drive me up a wall with their hyperactiveness since I just like to sit around and relax and do nothing all day. I hate getting up constantly and only will if I have to do something.
I like time to myself and hate sharing it with others (not counting animals in that) so that rules out children entirely. I can barely tolerate my mother in my face all the damn time, how can I tolerate a child in my home?
I am also very child-like in many ways, though that does make me immature. I would make a better big-sister than a mother.
Pregnancy and birth? Urgh, no thank you. Not to mention we have way too many people in the world as it is. Adoption is the way to go. I also think there should be a law that people can only have one child of their own and then if they want more, adopt. At least until the population goes down and parentless children get homes.
Now, if in fact I DO want children in the future, I will adopt older children. 5+ only of course. I will more than likely stay single unless I can find a guy for me, but that won't happen. I never even had a boyfriend in high school... What makes it possible that I will get one out of high school?
I have pretty good genes as far as medical conditions go. The worst any child of mine may get is sinus problems and bad eyesight unless I happen to be carrying a gene that I don't know of. Still, I won't take that chance.
OK, I'm done. Long post is long.