Not much I can say beyond... man that's awful. ~gentle hugs, and stomps on jerks~Meow wrote:Spoilered for current world state (brief) inclusion.Spoiler
I just want to move out, and isolation has reminded me why.... Dad keeps picking on me and he outright called me fat, when he's way more overweight than I'll ever be or have been (I'm 5'8 and a bit overweight (80kgs/176lbs), but I also have been injured all last year and haven't been able to get back into gym thanks to covid locking us all up 2 weeks after my osteopath gave me the all clear to go back to normal) and proceeded to then take my food out from under me the same night coz he assumed I didn't want it... This happened last week and I'm still not okay about it. I just wanna cry.
Then a few days later my dog of 17 years died, so that's been f*cking shit to deal with. We got her when I was 5 and I'm not used to her not being around...
Not to mention I haven't seen my boyfriend in like 8 weeks, and now my dad said I'm allowed to see him if he downloads the Covid app our country has, which I was made to download a while ago. Boyfriend won't download it. So I cant see him. Sorry I'm not important enough to you for you to want to see me that badly.
I'm angry at life right now for so many things, but this isolation has done nothing other than show me my worth to other people. I don't socialise any more or less than before, and it even gave me the excuse I needed not to go to a party I didn't want to go to. But I'm just furious and I need to get away from it all. My anxiety and emotions are so extreme right now they keep making me violently sick...
How Was Your Day Thread V5
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I had a dream that I was being stalked by a strange woman. She ended up breaking into my home and I had to kick her ass. Very exciting
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I'm so excited! I'm moving into my new apartment this weekend! Unfortunately, I also have work, so I'm going to be dead tired trying to move a bunch of boxes up a flight of stairs.
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I've had enough. I've been crying multiple times a day, every day for about the last week, all because of the way my family treats me. Once this pandemic is over, I'm leaving. I never want to see my parents again. I'm going to see if I can live with my sister as just her roommate and nothing more. She doesn't like me. She doesn't care about me. She doesn't want me as a friend or a sister. But maybe we can coexist as roommates. We can come up with a whole "roommate agreement" and everything, and she'll get to see my bunnies (whom she actually does love) every day. Also, she's very "frugal" as my mom would call it. I call it greedy. If I can get her to realize that sharing an apartment with me means she only has to pay half the rent, she might just go for it. If it weren't for the bunnies, I would rather be homeless than live here anymore. But I'm not going to abandon them. I love them, and I'm going to try my best to always be there for them. They are literally the only beings in the world that I still care about, and they're the only ones who still care about me. Everyone else can rot in hell.
@Meow: My dad regularly calls me fat too. I weigh 150 lbs.
@Meow: My dad regularly calls me fat too. I weigh 150 lbs.
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Since quarantine started, I've been having crazy vivid dreams. A lot of people I know have had them as well. I don't sleep much these days, but when I do my dreams are bizarre.HobbitFeet wrote:I had a dream that I was being stalked by a strange woman. She ended up breaking into my home and I had to kick her ass. Very exciting
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I keep dreaming that I'm back at my old jobs and I wake up hella stressed. What's quarantine doing to our unconscious imaginations??Soleil wrote:Since quarantine started, I've been having crazy vivid dreams. A lot of people I know have had them as well. I don't sleep much these days, but when I do my dreams are bizarre.HobbitFeet wrote:I had a dream that I was being stalked by a strange woman. She ended up breaking into my home and I had to kick her ass. Very exciting
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Talking about dreams...maybe you could try lucid dreaming thing? I mean if you are in quarantine you can as well go nuts trying something new If it works you could be able to stop those weird old- workplace kind of dreams
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The news here interviewed some lady (a dr or prof., unsure cause I didn't listen that closely) that basically said as a whole, we are getting more REM and deep sleep so we're getting those lucid, vivid dreams more than we used to. Seems likely, since even though I'm not sleeping much I don't wake feeling tired which means I did get more REM or deep.HobbitFeet wrote:I keep dreaming that I'm back at my old jobs and I wake up hella stressed. What's quarantine doing to our unconscious imaginations??Soleil wrote:Since quarantine started, I've been having crazy vivid dreams. A lot of people I know have had them as well. I don't sleep much these days, but when I do my dreams are bizarre.HobbitFeet wrote:I had a dream that I was being stalked by a strange woman. She ended up breaking into my home and I had to kick her ass. Very exciting
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Today I finished the last assignment of my last class of my Bachelor's Degree
Why am I filled with such conflicting feelings? I am both excited and relieved because school was stressful, yet very sad to see it go.
Why am I filled with such conflicting feelings? I am both excited and relieved because school was stressful, yet very sad to see it go.