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Free Yourself: They Are Always Watching

Postby Inkeyu » June 29th, 2015, 2:15:10 am

So many things,
So fleeting be.
There's no exception,
Not even me.
So in this life
Of change and speed,
Why should I pay
For what I need?
When the origin of life
Comes at a price,
How can we claim
We're no makers of strife?
Humanitarian ideals
Are taken as jokes,
So all there is left
Are egos to stroke.
Tell me I'm wrong,
I'll show you my proof.
Or stay as you are,
And remain just aloof.
But know you well,
Those whom hide the truth,
Won't leave you in peace,
So now you must choose:
Live in the dark,
Where they keep you unknowing,
Or move towards the light,
And free yourself from droning.

Remember,
They are always watching.
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Are you a furry?

Postby Inkeyu » July 20th, 2015, 6:09:58 pm

1) I grew up:
- trotting like a horse
- running on all fours at every opportunity
- Curling up in odd/cramped places
- Had a problem with biting

2) Most of my characters tend to be:
- based off of Robbin Hood or other anthropomorphic characters
- based off of Oliver and Company, Balto, Spirit and/or other fully-animal characters

3) I tend to sympathize more heavily with characters:
- like the wolves and horses from Beauty and the Beast, Frozen, Tangled, Spirit, etc.
- like the female squirrel, the fish, Archimedes from The Sword in the Stone, the goat from Stardust, etc.

4) I find myself randomly:
- whining when I'm unhappy about something
- yipping/barking to greet or warn someone
- growling at noises i can't identify
- stalking and pouncing on my friends
- biting to scratch an itch my teeth can reach
- noticing i can see better in the dark
- having energy surplus around full moons
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Dear Whoever's Listening

Postby Inkeyu » July 28th, 2015, 9:15:19 pm

I don't know what to do anymore...I feel so alone. I feel like there's no one in the world that I can trust. And I know it sounds crazy. It is crazy. It's because I can't speak. The words that my voice and mouth form don't ever match with the ones in my head. Nor do my written words and any other words. And I'm not a good enough artist to portray what i need to, visually.

There's so much I'm changing, so much I need to change, and it's never enough. Not for anyone around me, not for myself. And I feel helpless. Like there's nothing I can do about my situation without doing something drastic. It terrifies me.

There are so many decisions I have to make. And I have no one to help me. It's hard enough for me to ask for help in the first place, it does only terrible things when I do ask and don't get any or get ill-advice.

And there's no one I can talk to about any of it.
Not even the people out of all the other people in the world, i should be able to talk to about any of my internal conflicts.

That on top of all the sadness this year.....so many suicides........I feel like I'm on the edge of sending myself to a psych ward just to get away from these feelings of betrayal and lonliness...

I just don't know how long I can keep going the way I have been.

I know I need to seek help, and I will, but I also needed the words to use when I did.

~ <3 Inkeyu
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Re: The Moonshift Lounge: Muses of a Mind Long Lost

Postby Inkeyu » August 24th, 2015, 1:19:20 am

I just keep putting myself out there. Hoping that I can find others like me. Others who can like me. Others who would like me. Ever questing for someone who understands how I am. Who I am. What I am.
What I am capable of.
I test people with a tree of logic that starts with me telling them something about myself.
If the way they treat me changes; they can't handle me.
If nothing changes in how they treat me;
1) Do other people they talk to treat me differently?
--Yes; The original confidant likely told them = they aren't trustworthy
--No: The original confidant likely didn't tell them = possibly trustworthy, test again.

Repeat.
Nobody seems to understand though.
That might be because this is the best way I've found in words to put it yet.
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Re: The Moonshift Lounge: Muses of a Mind Long Lost

Postby Inkeyu » November 27th, 2015, 6:50:25 pm

"I know you, I tried to eat you the other day.
I know you, you ran and you ran and got away from me.
Now I know it's true, that my prey is seldom smart as me.
So if I know you, I know what you'll do,
You'll take the same path,
Right to where I last
Tried to eat you."

"I Eat You" - Parody song (beginning) of the song "I Know You" from Disney's Sleeping Beauty.
Inspired by a funny scenario that played out in Arc while my bf was playing.
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Re: The Moonshift Lounge: Muses of a Mind Long Lost

Postby Inkeyu » December 30th, 2015, 3:46:34 am

I'm so sick and tired of being blamed for everything. Anything that ever goes wrong in this relationship is My fault, and only My fault. Nothing i have ever done, do or will ever do will ever be good enough. I've reverted back to hating myself and picking at my face like i did when I was living at home with my parents, and now I find myself looking to move back with them because I can't take this bs anymore. I'm at a loss. I love my boyfriend but he doesn't even believe me that I do. I'm too afraid to end things too. Our lives are completely intertwined now and leaving would cause more pain simply for trying to get them untangled. And I still love him. But I feel like I shouldn't anymore because all it's doing is making me go crazy. Literally. I've resorted to taking anti depressants/anxiety medication and still nothing has changed but the side effects. There are a lot of reasons for me to stay, but also a lot of reasons for me to go. I just don't know anymore. I feel lost and alone, even when he's with me. i've tried everything i could think of to change anything, but again, nothing I do is ever good enough. And then when anything is or goes wrong, it's only because of me. Sometimes I find I can't even cry, others I cry for stupid things because of how they hurt me. And I can't talk to him about anything because he always turns it around to be my fault, or only tries to fix it. Sometimes I just need a F**king hug! Just one stupid hug! IN addition to all this, we haven't even made out in like 3 years, except for 5 seconds a week ago. I just don't know anymore. I hurt so much and I just want the pain to stop......
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Word Wings Beating

Postby Inkeyu » March 18th, 2016, 2:48:05 am

Far too long has been the wait,
For my brain to successfully pontificate.
Languish in language
Of twittering towers
And pictures that reform and change by the hour.
Tis nothing but the heart's desire,
That sets ablaze the mind's full pyre.
Yea thought.
Though art fleeting and devastating.
There for but a moment but impression never fading.
Through the dry and wet spells, wading.
And yet
The cycle
so fleeting;
Must take to the sky,
Hearts,
Minds,
Wings,
Beating.
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Alive With You

Postby Inkeyu » July 5th, 2016, 8:19:40 pm

What am I doing here
Here
Here in this place
Who am I now
To myself
To them
To them all
Why
Why am I
Why do I exist
How do I
How do I be
How do I change

I need to grow.
I need to evolve.
To adapt and Survive.
Despite the pain.
Despite the noise.
I need to be alive.

Is there
Is there something
Is there anything
For me
Will be
Will be a better me
Will
Step up
Rise up
Gonna let it all go.
Gotta
Take off
Lift off
Gonna fly away.

I need to grow.
I need to evolve.
To adapt and Survive.
Despite the pain.
Despite the noise.
I need to be alive.

There's someone
There's someone here
Here for me.
I lift me up
I lift them up
They do just the same.
Now mine
Now my heart
Is flying away.

But it's okay.

I need to grow.
I need to evolve.
To adapt and Survive.
Despite the pain.
Despite the noise.
I need to be alive.

We need to grow.
we need to evolve.
To adapt and Survive.
Despite the pain.
Despite the noise.
I need to be alive
With you.
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Anticipation

Postby Inkeyu » March 23rd, 2017, 3:09:45 pm

A special day
Approaching fast
But this stress and anticipation
Won't long last.

For soon we'll be one
After so short a time
Seems like it's been forever,
With your hand in mine.

A smile,
A turn,
And the lifting of eyes
The music,
The people,
To their feed do arise.

Tis our union day,
Jubilant and sweet,
As the petals that fall,
Just beneath our feet.

I'm getting married! <3 <3 <3 <3
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Re: The Moonshift Lounge: Muses of a Mind Long Lost

Postby Inkeyu » July 5th, 2017, 2:43:31 pm

So much has changed from then until now. I am happier than I have been in a very long time. I have someone very special to me who understands me well and has the patience and ability to help me when I need it, even if I can't always ask. He works very very hard to keep me happy and to make a better life for us, despite the fact that I've ttytold him he doesn't have to. He's so very good to me and I just hope I'm as good to him. I do try to be, and it seems that I succeed well enough. Hee thanks me for staying with him, I thank him for staying with me. We need out together frequently, and I adore it. We are working on several cosplays, I'm getting fully back into my art, as well as other things that made me me before, that I had gotten away from. I'm so lucky.

Also, our wedding is planned for October, before Halloween, so that we can honeymoon inn New Orleans for Halloween! I already have the dress and I have ideas for the invites but they're not sent out yet. Ires going to be a Steam Punk Vampire wedding! I'm so very excited!
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