How Was Your Day Thread V5

[Revan]

My father told me once you can tell a lot about a person by the way they shake hands. Last year, when voting went on for the new county officials, I met the guy running against the current DA at the time. I was not impressed. Shaking the man's hand was like holding a cold dead fish. Dad told me anyone with a limp handshake was a wuss.

Well, he ended up winning, and sure enough, he's a wuss. Sheriff's dept just had a major arrest of a couple for two toddlers being locked in makeshift cribs, an explosive chemical DRUG LAB in the garage, meth in the house, and illegal weapons possession since apparently the father has quite the past record and is NOT allowed to have weapons in the house. Bail was set at 10k for each parent...

And the DA has decided to drop ALL CHARGES and let them go.

What the hell.

[Solstice]

Warning: long-ish rant about my mental health

Spoiler

I'm honestly so sick of my mental health right now. I've been shaking all day cause I've barely eaten because I'm too depressed to leave my bed. My boyfriend offered to order me food (he can't visit me today), but guess who's too anxious to interact with a delivery person? Yup, me. And even if I did find the strength to talk to someone, getting down the stairs will probably be really difficult at this point considering I live on the third floor and I pretty much haven't eaten anything in two days. I just want to feel normal again and stop being in pain all the time. I want to be able to go to my classes and do my homework without having mental breakdowns every time. I want to be able to interact with people in person again. I want to be able to keep writing cause it used to be a passion of mine but now it's too hard and I'm too scared of future rejection to even start typing. I want to get help, but I'm scared of that too. I've tried therapy in the past but it just hasn't worked for me. The therapist's style made me feel like I was just wasting my time. She was pretty much a wall, to be honest. Like, I'd just go on and on about my issues and she'd barely say anything. I don't need to pay to talk about my problems; I repeat them enough in my own head.
Ugh, sorry about the long paragraph. I just needed to rant cause this month has been the worst for my mental health so far...

[DarrkestDrow]

Warning: long-ish rant about my mental health

Spoiler

I'm honestly so sick of my mental health right now. I've been shaking all day cause I've barely eaten because I'm too depressed to leave my bed. My boyfriend offered to order me food (he can't visit me today), but guess who's too anxious to interact with a delivery person? Yup, me. And even if I did find the strength to talk to someone, getting down the stairs will probably be really difficult at this point considering I live on the third floor and I pretty much haven't eaten anything in two days. I just want to feel normal again and stop being in pain all the time. I want to be able to go to my classes and do my homework without having mental breakdowns every time. I want to be able to interact with people in person again. I want to be able to keep writing cause it used to be a passion of mine but now it's too hard and I'm too scared of future rejection to even start typing. I want to get help, but I'm scared of that too. I've tried therapy in the past but it just hasn't worked for me. The therapist's style made me feel like I was just wasting my time. She was pretty much a wall, to be honest. Like, I'd just go on and on about my issues and she'd barely say anything. I don't need to pay to talk about my problems; I repeat them enough in my own head.
Ugh, sorry about the long paragraph. I just needed to rant cause this month has been the worst for my mental health so far...

Spoiler

I've been through this with someone very close to me before and I understand the struggle and how very real and difficult it is. I don't have any flowery words to help, but I am sorry it is something you struggle with.

[Solstice]

Warning: long-ish rant about my mental health

Spoiler

I'm honestly so sick of my mental health right now. I've been shaking all day cause I've barely eaten because I'm too depressed to leave my bed. My boyfriend offered to order me food (he can't visit me today), but guess who's too anxious to interact with a delivery person? Yup, me. And even if I did find the strength to talk to someone, getting down the stairs will probably be really difficult at this point considering I live on the third floor and I pretty much haven't eaten anything in two days. I just want to feel normal again and stop being in pain all the time. I want to be able to go to my classes and do my homework without having mental breakdowns every time. I want to be able to interact with people in person again. I want to be able to keep writing cause it used to be a passion of mine but now it's too hard and I'm too scared of future rejection to even start typing. I want to get help, but I'm scared of that too. I've tried therapy in the past but it just hasn't worked for me. The therapist's style made me feel like I was just wasting my time. She was pretty much a wall, to be honest. Like, I'd just go on and on about my issues and she'd barely say anything. I don't need to pay to talk about my problems; I repeat them enough in my own head.
Ugh, sorry about the long paragraph. I just needed to rant cause this month has been the worst for my mental health so far...

Spoiler

I've been through this with someone very close to me before and I understand the struggle and how very real and difficult it is. I don't have any flowery words to help, but I am sorry it is something you struggle with.

It really means a lot to me that I have a community here on Magistream. You all are so kind to everyone and I just love being on here so much. Thank you for the concern. I ended up letting my boyfriend order me food and I feel a lot better now

[oceanmist]

Warning: long-ish rant about my mental health

Spoiler

I'm honestly so sick of my mental health right now. I've been shaking all day cause I've barely eaten because I'm too depressed to leave my bed. My boyfriend offered to order me food (he can't visit me today), but guess who's too anxious to interact with a delivery person? Yup, me. And even if I did find the strength to talk to someone, getting down the stairs will probably be really difficult at this point considering I live on the third floor and I pretty much haven't eaten anything in two days. I just want to feel normal again and stop being in pain all the time. I want to be able to go to my classes and do my homework without having mental breakdowns every time. I want to be able to interact with people in person again. I want to be able to keep writing cause it used to be a passion of mine but now it's too hard and I'm too scared of future rejection to even start typing. I want to get help, but I'm scared of that too. I've tried therapy in the past but it just hasn't worked for me. The therapist's style made me feel like I was just wasting my time. She was pretty much a wall, to be honest. Like, I'd just go on and on about my issues and she'd barely say anything. I don't need to pay to talk about my problems; I repeat them enough in my own head.
Ugh, sorry about the long paragraph. I just needed to rant cause this month has been the worst for my mental health so far...

Spoiler

Oh man do I know this feeling. Thank god my boyfriend lives with me and can bring the food right to bed. For those days, I try to have a stash of granola bars handy.

But I really recommend trying to get help again. I know it's hard and you can really be set back by the wrong person (I mean I regressed two years because my new psych was convinced depression wasn't my issue), but there is someone out there that can help you. You said you don't want to do therapy, but have you considered seeing a psychiatrist for medication options? Again, I know meds are a big decision and can be difficult to start, but they can be so worth it. I have been on maybe 6 or 7 different meds and I am just now finding one I like. Yeah it sucked, but what's the alternative? I wasn't getting any better without medication.

And I've found that making sure you have a psych who is easy to contact and will refill/change prescriptions over the phone if you are having issues is best. Mine has told me outright that he will refill meds for me if I can't get an appointment and run out and if he isn't in the office, any of his coworkers will approve it for me. That is extremely helpful because my last psych forced me into withdrawals because he wouldn't answer my messages.

So yeah, sorry for the ramble, but I've been through so many different treatments for anxiety/depression and I can give you any advice/support you may need. Don't hesitate to PM me

[Kastilla]

I just donated $2 today to Magistream.

[Faleep]

Spoiler

that above conversation reminds me that I very much need to eat myself, cause I haven’t had anything all day... hhhhh. The thought of eating food is making me not want to eat food though.

[AuraDragoness]

Ants are bloody everywhere in my workplace and I hate it :/ Can't use bug spray either 'cause baby birds are around so we have to use peppermint stuff which, while effective, is still a pain.

[midnightem]

anyone know how to get a co-signer to take out loans for uni? my parents cant nor will my grandparents help.

[Solstice]

Spoiler

that above conversation reminds me that I very much need to eat myself, cause I haven’t had anything all day... hhhhh. The thought of eating food is making me not want to eat food though.

I hope you're doing okay I definitely understand having a complicated relationship with food