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~ Don't eat?( Not just breakfast but lunch and dinner too?)
~ Throw up on purpose? (Not because there's something caught in you're throat but because you don't wanna get fat)
~Do you ever think you're a horrible person when you actually eat? (all you can do is stare down at you're full plate of food thinking that it's using you)


Same here ,

I only eat one day of the week - Sunday
I have been called a freak
I have thrown-up on purpose
I have passed out because of it

and I need advice from other people that have either broken it or are trying to - if you have broken it how did you? If you are currently going threw it are you trying to break it or are you letting you're self starve(Don't be afraid to feel ashamed I'm not trying to break either)?

If you don't know if you have a food problem here's a quiz (copy and paste in you're post)
Do you have the money for food?
{} Yes
{} No

Do you not eat?
{} Yes
{} No

How many meals do you have a day?
{} 1
{}0
{}2
{}All four

Have you thrown up on purpose?
{} NEVER
{} I have tried
{} I have thought about it
{} Yes

Are you over weight? (Not being mean)
{} No
{} Yes
{} Normal

Now let's face it have people called you a twig or anything that means this?(Skip question if you answered yes to the question above)
{} Every Day
{} No
{} Before

Description of you're concerns:

For the way you have set this up, there is only one response we can have: Seek professional help.

We are not medical professionals. We are not professional councilors. Seek help. If you're asking here, you obviously want it. Members could share personal anecdotes, but, again, for the level of help you are asking in this thread you need to seek a professional, not a random website no matter how beloved. Find someone you trust, if you don't want to go to close friends or family try someone a little more distant: A pastor (Or equivalent for your faith), a school councilor, a coach. Someone you trust but aren't necessarily stuck with for the rest of your life. They should all have resources to get you help, or be able to help you find someone local who CAN help.

Here are some resources I dug up that should give you a starting point:
http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/body/eatin ... -help.html
http://www.something-fishy.org/
http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_are_some ... _helplines

This forum is open to a discussion of the nature of eating disorders and their impact on individuals, but we are not equipped to deal with the treatment aspects.

~Wolfeyedangel

As someone recovering from an eating disorder, the absolute best advice I can give is to GET HELP from a professional. If you are to afraid to talk to your parents, talk to a school counselor or call a hotline number. Eating disorders are a terrible thing to have to deal with, and the fact that you realize and can admit that you have one is the first step to recovery.

Please talk to someone who can help you. There is everything from therapy to long-term stay clinics that can provide care and help you tremendously. Don't be afraid to ask for help.

stealthxstar wrote:As someone recovering from an eating disorder, the absolute best advice I can give is to GET HELP from a professional. If you are to afraid to talk to your parents, talk to a school counselor or call a hotline number. Eating disorders are a terrible thing to have to deal with, and the fact that you realize and can admit that you have one is the first step to recovery.

Please talk to someone who can help you. There is everything from therapy to long-term stay clinics that can provide care and help you tremendously. Don't be afraid to ask for help.

wolfeyedangel wrote:For the way you have set this up, there is only one response we can have: Seek professional help.

We are not medical professionals. We are not professional councilors. Seek help. If you're asking here, you obviously want it. Members could share personal anecdotes, but, again, for the level of help you are asking in this thread you need to seek a professional, not a random website no matter how beloved. Find someone you trust, if you don't want to go to close friends or family try someone a little more distant: A pastor (Or equivalent for your faith), a school councilor, a coach. Someone you trust but aren't necessarily stuck with for the rest of your life. They should all have resources to get you help, or be able to help you find someone local who CAN help.

Here are some resources I dug up that should give you a starting point:
http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/body/eatin ... -help.html
http://www.something-fishy.org/
http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_are_some ... _helplines

This forum is open to a discussion of the nature of eating disorders and their impact on individuals, but we are not equipped to deal with the treatment aspects.

~Wolfeyedangel

Thank's for quickly responding - the support and the websites

i don't think my parents could ever believe me they're to perfect to have an un-perfect child , my brother has ADHD and the second he was diagnosed they said "How do we get rid of it?"
I was always the good one / the fat one according to them since my younger brother still can't sit still , - I atleast want to try healing it without professional help first ,

rowantree wrote:Thank's for quickly responding - the support and the websites

i don't think my parents could ever believe me they're to perfect to have an un-perfect child , my brother has ADHD and the second he was diagnosed they said "How do we get rid of it?"
I was always the good one / the fat one according to them since my younger brother still can't sit still , - I atleast want to try healing it without professional help first

hun, I spent a summer at a long-term stay clinic for girls & women that have eating disorders, and over 80% of them have stories exactly like that.

you NEED to talk to someone. If you have access to a school counselor, they will be able to help you and you won't necessarily have to let your parents know. Please talk to someone. I know its hard and horrible and your family would be horrified to know, but its your life and health and you need to make sure YOU are ok. screw what your parents think about it. If they can't come to terms with it, thats their problem, but it shouldn't be yours.

I can only echo what others have said. I have a form of anorexia (yes, fat chicks get it too and no...you don't EVER get rid of it; you can only recover from it and learn better ways to deal with your emotional need for self control). I've had it since I was eighteen and it took professional counseling, family intervention, a nutritionist, a medical team, and several brushes with death to get me straightened out.

My liver and kidneys are impaired because of what I did. My heart is damaged. I no longer have a gag reflex and, should I need to do so, there is no other way to evacuate my stomach except pumping it (obviously that's an emergency situation right there).

Get professional help somehow. Talk to a school counselor, a teacher, someone, anyone who can intervene. The first step has to be yours, however. Heck, get a doctor's appointment, request that your mother/father leave the room and talk to him/her in confidence. If you're old enough (most physicians will honor that request by age twelve or thirteen) then they'll comply and find a way to get you help.

In the meantime, there ARE a few places you can seek help. These people can guide you to someone in your area who is within your family's budget and/or who will work with you in complete confidentiality. There's lots of good advice and support on this site, but they'll tell you the same thing we have here: you need professional help.

Something Fishy - A Pro-Recovery Site

There were many times I thought my anorexia would kill me. I dropped to 66 pounds, and I was just miserable. It was hard for me to walk, talk, smile, anything. I didn't enjoy life anymore, at all. I am now recovering on my own, as I don't have the material means to seek professional help. What really helped me once I started eating 'normally' again was taking photos of everything I ate, and making a collage at the end of the day, which I would compare to what my friends would eat. This way, I was satisfied with how much I ate and knew I didn't overdo it. Alas, I still haven't gained any weight since I don't go over my RDI, but I am no longer heavily anemic, and I love my life! You have to be strong and never give up, don't let the bullying and misfortunes of life get you down

I have not had an eating disorder, but I've been struggling with OCD for years without knowing it. One of my obsessions was that I was ugly and not shaped right, and I would often have recurring thoughts (which I had no control over) telling me that no one would ever like me, that I would never fit in, et cetera. I would stand in front of the mirror for hours trying desperately to fix my appearance. This, along with my other obsessions hung over my head and I suffered alone for years.

Then two things happened: one, I caught myself looking at my sister (who did have an eating disorder and was underweight at the time) and wishing I looked as thin as her. Two, my parents found a steak knife in the drawer of my bedside table. They asked me about it, and insisted that I get professional help after I told them that I'd been cutting myself. I didn't want to go, but they took me to a psychologist.

Something that many people don't realize is that psychology isn't at all like it is on tv. It isn't a bunch of hokey, condescending people telling you to 'empower yourself'. When I go for my appointments (which are one-on-one), they are quite conversational, and they usually start off with me talking about what happened between the last appointment and the current one. If something positive happened, we examine it further and look at why it was positive and what I did to make it positive. If it was negative, we look at whether it truly was negative (OCD tends to make me see only the bad things that I've done; I still remember specific details of a joke I told wrong on the first day of grade 1), and look for ways to move on and plan for the next similar situation. If you find the right psychologist, it won't feel like you're going in there for a therapy session, It'll feel like you're talking to the best friend you've ever had; someone understands you, and says things that show you a different perspective without 'commanding' you to take that perspective.

About your parents, I'll admit that I don't know much about your personal situation, but I will tell you that I felt the same way with mine. They really wanted me to start going on medication for my OCD, and whenever they brought it up, it felt like they were telling me to get myself 'fixed', and I completely understand where you're coming from on how annoying (and insulting) that is. However, with the meds, I can sleep at night without having to cater to the whims of my obsessions and I can walk out the door not caring whether or not I look perfect. Both the psychology and the meds have changed my life, and I've realized that when my parents were saying 'let's get rid of your problem', what they meant was 'we're worried about you and want you to have the best life possible', but they were actually too worried about me to make it sound like that. I'll concede that I have no idea what your situation is like in the finer details, but I would ask that you find some way to get professional help. It is so much more helpful than it seems, and just because you're talking to a psychologist doesn't mean that you're 'crazy'.

Find someone to help you, please, because anyone who has suffered what you have been going through deserves to get out of the vicious cycle. I'll always be here to talk to if you need it, but I'm no where near as good as the people who went to university to learn how to help you.

I've never had a problem like this, so I may not have the best idea of what is going on. Or I may not be welcome here. But sorry in advance...here goes my two cents.

When you pass out from anything, that's bad. You need to get help. Talk to somebody. I'm amazed that you're willing to talk about it on the internet, where it will be permanent, to total strangers. That means you're brave. That's a good thing. If you're brave you'll be able to be strong in all sorts of situations, this one included.

Don't let yourself starve. Try to eat. There are ways to keep yourself in good shape that won't have a negative impact. You mentioned that you think the food is using you. It's not. Trust me on this, if nothing else. Eating more than one meal per week will help you.

As I said before, I myself have never been anorexic, but I think I can understand how you feel. I'm a different body shape than a lot of the people around me, and I know that it can hurt. I can imagine how people can choose to starve themselves to try to fit in.

Eating regular meals will not make you fat if you try to balance them and get exercise. You may not have a perfect body,but you will have a healthy body. Please get help. This may sound cliche, but I know that if you do nothing and die because of this people would miss you. Your family would, your friends would, people here on magistream would. Please get help. All these people replying to this thread proves we're with you, no matter what.

A friend of mine had it, she ended up in hospital for some time, but now she's fine and appears perfectly normal and happy. But she did tell me you never completely heal, and also that she wouldn't really know how to help someone else with the same problem.

Basically, you're not a freak, you're ill, get medical help.